So, a few things to update you on, as I know how deeply you care.

Last night Brian and I celebrated the fourth anniversary of our first date! Which was also the day we met. Because we met on a blind date. Well, not “blind” since we had seen pictures, but maybe like, “nearsighted.” Or something. Anyway I guess it went well because here we are, all married to each other. We went to the same restaurant where we had our first dinner — an Indian place in our neighborhood called Masala.

My period was “due” yesterday and didn’t come, so I was all stoked. Then this morning I felt kind of sick, so I got even more excited. Then in late morning I went pee and there was some Spotting. So I got very down and was crying and frustrated and wanting to just give up and so on. Very upset. A few hours later, I had to pee again. After I finished, I noticed that there was nothing in the bowl or on my TP except yellow. For me, this is pretty weird. Usually after the first spot, the next time I pee the floodgates open. Sorry for the TMI. So I don’t know what is going on. Also, no cramps.

So I am still trying not to get my hopes up, only to have them dashed again. This is incredibly emotionally exhausting to be going through for 13 straight months.

One way I am soothing my fragile psyche is by buying a beautiful new handbag. I know what you’re thinking; another one?? But you see! I have a 25% off coupon, and I am selling another bag, as I usually do when it’s time to buy a new one. Good girl! The bag is on its way to me from the distro center in Florida. I am quivering with anticipation. She’s a beauty.

Right now I am waiting to solve a bug on the website, drinking some tea, and will soon go and see Brian at his work so he can give me his keys. I forgot mine at home today. Head in the clouds, I guess.